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[21 Nov 2006|01:53am] |
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for thouse that didnt know..the 18th was my bday..iam 20......i also now work two full time jobs.....80 hours a week and iam thinking about enlisting into the air force as a career......i dont know..so yea.....ill post more later
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| I got weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet....thanks work!! |
[27 Oct 2006|06:55pm] |
Well my normal week got messed up...ended up working on site.......had to run a feeder cable for a phone system and start programing..and checking the logical rings ( Fancy telephone networking ) well..we rented a nice man lift to go up into the 40ish foot high ceailing...upon arrival we notice it acts funny..dosnt work like its supose to..sometimes you tell it to go foward...it goes backwards...ok..no problems....we can work around problems till new one arrives the next day...well at 45 feet i tell it to go forward it goes backwards intoa 4 inch feeder pipe that T's downwards....we snap it....this is an building were all water is supose to be cut!!.....the lines are in fact..CHARGED...so 140psi of water comes out spraying us....laptop is gone.....maps..cell phones all soaked......thats not bad....the lift than decides to NOT WORK.......so were stuck..the rental company shows up 2 hours later.....and as soon as he see's were being battered by water he comes and lets us done.....but when he lets us down..it catches the pipe and breaks it in 4 more places......so instead of one major flooding leak..we got 4....that no one knows how to shut off......Roanoke County ended up having to cut the main supply into the building....so my day sucked....
Beside freezing my ass off......
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[31 Aug 2006|12:21am] |
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Since being hired at my new job..ive become the instant techy...my desk is overflowing with paperwork..motherbords...pc parts..and a shitload of BRAND NEW computers we bought that decided to go sizzle....all i gotta say is the name brand ryhmes with "hell" As we have our own in house Circut tech we got sorta fishy when all 3 devolped the same exeact problem...made some phone calls and some research..apprently a certain set of laptops is a bad batch...found about 40 others that are doing the exact same thing...well they company natural says were not quialifed to look at said products..but its funny when i can speak english and spell motherboard right...whent here "Tech" has to ask me how to spell "hard drive" Pretty fucked isnt it...
Well today..2nd class day...fun...not till we left....some fucker aftr my first accident rear ends me....now i have to get the rear end of my car fixed...a stop light means stops idioits......
In case yall didnt hear....some old guy going down 9th street didnt yield to an oncoming EMS Unit and clipped my front end.....oh joy...brand new car turns into a crash magnet......
Running ragged at work....i work on voicemails and i formed our "dulpication" processes to back up customers data..etc..even built the machine and the bootable's for it..working 8 hours normal days..plus getting called back out at 2am and whenever some one has a damn problem with a voice mail..Ok..it dosnt work..REPLACE It..put the old one on my desk...backup's will follow next day..NOT at 2 am in ass crack of dawn...
my normal "hours" for 2 weeks went from 80...to 90..iam pushing around 100....oh joy...not at home enough to enoy my guitars....sold them..sorta had to as the fuckers insurnace wouldnt cover the damage...so i had to pay for it and take him to court..i won..
Now i gotta put up with this dipshit that rear-ended me....God i need a truck...crap like that just bend a bumper a bit..not bend the frame and mess up the engine.....I love how people drive...
In the work truck a few weeks ago some idiot kept taping the bumper at the stop lights....well the work trucks being light trucks to heavy trucks are all stick..and on a hill..roll back......it was me at the end of the "convoy" and 4 other trucks in front..all witnessed this idiot do this crap....so when i rolled back *going from a dead stop on a hill to first gear* it crushed the front of his crappy car....he said i rolled back....everyone as a witness said he kept tailgating and tapping me...so i get points...than the judge revokes thouse said points and ends up giving the other asshole a wreakless driving charge...
Oh bloody joy..this MONTH is not on my side...momma allways said there be days like this..but 30 of them in a row...damn....
On the good news is..iam house lookin...why pay 500 bucks a month rent when you can pay a mortage of the same price...got my leg tattoo finished......got back into paint ball for the days iam NOT working on the weekends......my ass will be going on a vacition next year..WAY away from this town.. figured maine or some small place to relaze....
But on a sad note..everyone please pray for the people in the hurricane....my friends were in the super dome...one of which..jessy..had just given birth to her son not less than a month ago...all contact has been severed...all phone....cell and power is sadly out...=(
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| New job..new ink |
[24 Jul 2006|02:59pm] |
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i work for an communcations firm.....yay..shitload more $....bought a new car..sold POS escourt....next step is bike... Now for the thriller...i got my ink done...well 5 1/2 hours worth...i have 10 hours left...and this is the drawing of the tattoo http://www.deviantart.com/view/11216151/
next saturaday it shall be 3/4ths done...yay
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| Iam alive |
[06 Jun 2006|08:33am] |
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I am alive....took a higher paying job which turned out to be a mistake...oh well...leaving secuirty for and fiber optics and satealight communcations company...we install high end shit...i have more than enough room to expand my potental and its a local owned company...so..yay..well i just got out of secuirty so iam tired...:)
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[27 Mar 2006|12:42am] |
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Gary in a nutshelll...gary is ragged and working 60 hours plus a week as a cable bitch between a job in Gainsville and Manass (very fuckin close to Dc....traffic SUCKS)
Gary totaled one work truck when the breaks decided to fail.....softest thing to hit was a god damn concreate barrier.......Amazing the breaks failing was his fault...royal bitchen from boss who refused to have new pads put on because "They looked fine".....dumbass.....
Gary is also programing our new website..intro etc....as well as learning cisco switches for dummies......running a small web ftp outta his damn bedroom...looking for houses..( have one i may have shortly!! nice house...:) )
In a nut shell...iam fuckin nuts...and iam lookin for an IT level job......other than being the overall grunt...iam spaaaazed out.....x.x burnt out much like it and i cant wait till my july 24-28 week of paid vaction...my ass will be AWAY FROM ROANOKE...with a pina colida and a fuckin straw hat having a good ole time...without pagers and cell phones
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[14 Feb 2006|12:50pm] |
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Ok..been forever since ive posted...ive been having back problems...and well xrays came back today...I have a lower plater bulging outward with a very small stress crack thats been getting worse...well today was the day i heard " We are very certain you will need to have a nice visit with the OR" Aka...iam waiting on the MRI soon and the Orthopedic doctors ok to spend 3 months laying on my back after there friggin surgery......iam not a happy camper...
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| iam live.. |
[11 Jan 2006|03:36am] |
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Yes everyone i'am alive........well.....things are strange...1st wreak...DAMN i hate idiots....lady decided to slam on her breaks during a green light...ass-ending and freakin out ensued....lady looked at her car which was fine and hauled ass leaving me with a busted radiator and a friggin "holy" bumper now.....Good news....Buying newer car soon...selling my Eclipse and some other things....anyone want an x-drag car that i bought without a motor *was planning to fix it up...motor cost more than i was quoted* Got my guitar stuff set back up..about time i took back into music.....been forever since i picked one up....pics here: http://photobucket.com/albums/v465/amdxp2000/Guitar/ Been out n about trying to get a 2nd job..found a REALLY good one a friend is sending me the app's...Cardinal Glass company.....full time..insurance all that good crap out the ass...10 bucks for night shift...9 for 1st and 2nd...id take nights and do school cus than i could afford school...car...insurance...goodies....moving out etc...and *gasps* than i can get my busted tattoo fixed were the ink bleeded out on me...Well for my new years resolutions crap...
1.Finish my 2 year.....iam 1/2 way done...moving onto 4 year..than hoping to pull off at 8....
2. Fix Tattoo and have my custom work added to it...
3. Newer vehicle *no more imports....*
4. Hang out with friends more...work kills thouse who dont spend time with friends and loved ones.....
5. BUDGET ! BUDGET !! I need to stop falling back on "back" funds....
6. Move the hell out.....parents are good...until they jack your car cus its more "Gas effiecnet"
7. Get guitar lessons again..acustic and eletric....i can still play some..but on electric god iam rusty...
And on another note..i NEED! to stop eating Chinese in the mall...i was slowly losing weight...until i discovered the $5.40 2 items and rice meal.....not bad for a friggin huge take out thing that fills me up....Buuut...yea..started to lose..now iam gaining..eating them everyday will do that..Well iam out..time to attempt to sleep without pills....recent news...ive been declared by a "medical professional" iam a server insomniac...wow....thats new news...Pfffht...anyways...there trying an "natural" and herbal crap first...not working........there trying to keep me off the sleeping pills...Yea....OOH ! and Kabuki ! the Japanese steak house in roanoke is pricey..but god worth EVERY penny....went there with friends....it was soo tasty and so entertaining...*drools*.....Well iam out...Peace
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[04 Dec 2005|05:20am] |
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Ok...now iam extatic......checked my voicemail before going back to bed...i actully won that lot of stuff..21 inch SUN monitor...new from SUN about 400 bucks...got it with a lot of computer parts for 110 bucks LOCAL! Got abunch of older socket 7 junk shoved in it....Oh well..all i gotta do is buy a 15pin to SUN oddball connections cable...woo 30 bucks.....now the problem is...my desk hutch will only fit a 19 inch...Hmmm...what to do....Oh well..ill find something...anyone want anything.....and if its just...junk or i like ya..just ask...it may come your way freebie :P....nighters all =)
And..i actully have a few SCSI drives for about 20 bucks a pop 10gbs...cables all that good junk..as well a a dual 500mhz Server mobo..and some other crap...including a generic dremel and PC mods supplies....
17 Inchers $20
15 Inchers $15
Lot of stuff...make offer...will sell whole for 50ish..or best offer...will split
isc cables and computer case parts.
1 SMC 83c795QF P NIC ISA
1 Soundblaster 16 Value ISA Card
1 Soundblaster 16 ISA Card
1 Soundblaster 16 scsi ISA Card
1 FX-16 ESS Sound Card ISA
1 Ensonic ES1370 Soundcard PCI
1 Proaudio 16 ISA Sound Card
2 Intel 8/16 Lan Adaptor
1 I/O Flex USB Card.2 port PCI
1 Creative Labs CT7235-VBQ Video Card PCI
1 S3 Trio 3d/2x Vid Card AGP
1 S3 Vision868 Video Card PCI
1 3com NIC ISA
1 US robotics 56k Modem PCI
1 Intel 56k Modem/FAX PCI
1 Winbond Controller card ISA
2 sticks of 72 Pin RAM
1 486 DX2 50mhz Processor
1 AMD K6 200 Mhz Chip
1 386 Motherboard w/ RAM
1 Socket 7 Motherboard w/ Processor/Heatsink and 128MB of 168 pin RAM
1 250Watt ATX Power Supply
1 200 Watt AT Power Supply
1 250Watt AT Power Supply
1 IOMEGA 100 MB Parallel Zip Drive with Cable and Power Supply
1 Generic PS2 Keyboard
1 Packard Bell PS2 Keyboard
1 Logitech PS2 Keyboard
1 Generic PS2 Mouse
1 Reveal Serial Trackball
1 Hewlett Packard Floppy Drive
1 WD Caviar 280 85MB Hard Drive
1 Conner Hard Drive
1 Conner 121MB Hard Drive
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| Damn computers..... |
[04 Dec 2005|04:56am] |
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Today...was BAD......1st off...my company for our POS *Point of Sale* systems are using amd k6's with windows 98 loaded onto a 512mb drive..which in turn points the system to load off into the crapiest 64mb stick of ram and load the remote "POS OS" onto the stick..pretty much win98 goes hi...communicates with our back master POS server than the master server remotely sends data......cool right...BLOODY WRONG ! Ok we have 2 registers...and as for our tech...my sympathy does go out to him..he has spent 4 days doing over the phone trouble shooting with us..because ONLY he knows wtf does what..seeing as how he made our POS Operating system...1st they thought it was a bad cable...got that...worked for 4 hours....than the splitter...did that...got worse...than the printer with in turn operates both cash drawers...sent us a "new" one....no workie...than we find out..Oh...we dont have ANYONE to come and fix our systems because guess what....a idiot in a truck decides to t bone him..so he's in the hospital...So..we all just use Register 2 the "small" one....works fine all day..till i do a layaway refund....than it goes AWOL...so...it just gives me the bird and does its thing...ok..major problem...we cant void the action to redo the refund....we have NO idea how to fix this..our manger dosnt..and this guy wants his cash back...so we give him his cash right.....at the end of day sales report. …my register is reporting to home office that iam $25,000 short ! the machine totally bumped its head...this was not a miss key as we ALL saw it go go insane....none of us have any clue how to fix this....first rant.....moving onto 2nd....Manger from another store calls...iam trying to do 3 things...re-hook the old printer into the broken register to finish trouble shooting....help a customer and..of course answer the phone...i answer and say good evening how can i help you… accidentally *is only human* i forget to mention my stores name.....i get jumped....he pretty much lays me out over the phone because i forgot the stores name..when he has NO idea whats going on.....and IAM the only one there with a working register because iam still fixing the broken one..and my associate had to take the bank bag out....can we say major grrr.........So i get home...fall asleep....cant sleep now...puppy at frickin 4:38 am decided i wanna play...if you dont play iam gonna take a nice long leak on your fresh clean clothes.....so now iam doing laundry.....3rd i moved to morning shift to be able to go to game on Friday nights....Lil was suppose to call me about it..to see if i can go or not....apparently she eaither didnt care or she forgot...oh well.....i may move to a nightshift job anyway...optical cable received one of my résumés so...if all goes well....a career may be ahead...I also got a call from Hillary old study partner as well as network engineer associate......we apparently MAY have a nice little set up to run some cables as well as set some systems up for a local store....Fun....seeing as how they said they would pay 100 bucks for every network drop we did...plus 20 an hour tech fee....not bad at all between 2 people expected to meet in person and chat about this....i dont know but a vacation in Cancun or some were not *here* sounds good....anyone want to go with me to rent a beach house....perhaps a nice backpacking trip or even white water...i still got the kayaks.....just...i need stress relief...x.x only so much you can do before you go insane in this town...and the fact its just me...my computer..and ami *the puppy* dosnt go very far when its just confinement to work...sleep..home...dinner....gets very..grrrr...anyways..iam going to attempt to go back to bed...the puppy has seemed to just magically fall asleep RIGHT on my laptop bag...time to move her....Anyways....anyone leave some sorta of Message.....SOS over...Peace !
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[01 Dec 2005|07:38am] |
For thouse that havent seem Ami....i do have pics....go here...the spoiled puppy *didnt do it* i swear..i came home and shes moved inside...and they done got her 4 pillows...one for the downstairs Den...the one in my room...the one for the kitchen...and *trumpets* one for theres.....they have got her soo spoiled unless you take an umbrella JUST for her when its raining..she wont go outside...and she only walks on the stepping stones :P
Pics:
http://photobucket.com/albums/v465/amdxp2000/Puppy/
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| Work work work... |
[01 Dec 2005|07:19am] |
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About time i posted.......my daily life is now.....Wake up...play with Ami *puppy* Feed fish..shower...eat a premade crappy breakfast...get in car...drive to work.....work for 9 hours..perhaps work another idiots bloody shift because the stoner cant get off his ass.....that would make open to close on holiday hours oh..9 frickin am till 10pm thats 14 hours ! thats alot to pull for me in ONE bloody day..than manage to wake back up at 7am..on the dot ever morning....gets VERY tiring......NEWSFLASH i have had outside contact ! Went to fox's and actully played a REALLY cool game.....love it.....i look forward to playing that again....were else does the "gatekeeper" harass you :P ....Hmm....missing everyone at Roa and all the kick ass times we had running around......this town sorta went DULL....and i mean REALLY dull.....Leif left *beths husband* went to the military...sooo...no more late night IHOP meetings with leif,beth,luke and Keith........lost a bunch of good friends only to make more back...thats part of growing up....you "blossom" and tend to find a new set of friends when you go your own way's....but you do keep a certain amount of your old ones.....IE i still talk to fox,aisha,lil,jennifer.....seldomly gracie,mike ? *wouldnt mind hanging with them* semi on good terms with Hillary...he moved into this REALLY crap apartment....thought he needed compain so....got him a puppy to...but of course Ben B....its all good :P paintball at 4am in the morning.......Hmm...for some one that no mater what wakes up at 7am now...iam in a good mood...havent had one DROP of caffine yet..no coffee or expresso..*is cutting that crap out* i havent picked up a cig in 9 months.....thanks to Mr.Andy before the big "Revoltion" for ragging me to quit...same with lil and aisha.....Ive actully bought 3 things or attemtping to....1st....Boggiepop Phantom and Catsoup *mwhahaha!* 2nd Eletric Guaitar *has made his payments* i USED to play when i was much younger...i need something to free me up....very living....something to do when nothing else is there....3rd...a house/apartment....iam looking HEAVLY...to rent a house......i orignal had one till the person i was going half/half with backed the crap out....so what i dont want cable....iam not there to EVER watch it...its work..get up..eat sleep run around...work....clean....cable..pfht.....perhaps cable net yesh..broadband is heaven.....Anyways its THAT time for me to start heading to work....bookwork suchs majorly in the morning.....so does opening...Ja ne....peace and love for the rest of ya....BTW hit me up on my cell..US Cell has finnaly fixed there tower and my new number is 540-598-9039 if i dont answer...its because of iam working..or sleeping so in that case...leave me voicemails....and if ya wanna do something...tell me cus iam ALL up for it...*is bored*
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[09 Nov 2005|02:57am] |
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B-Day Counter: 0 *including parents*
new counter: # of hate calls from a bitch.....39....still counting....
Life is nothing right now...i wake up...work....eat...work....come home..sleep.....repeat times 5,6 days a week...It's become dull and very boring.....anime has lost it's feeling....only person I see is people from work....apparently people only call/visit/email when they want shit......apparently i have to start school again or move out.....iam SO burnt out on school since Roanoke city screwed me over it isn’t funny……currently seeking a place to live..found one and maybe a very good new full time job with FULL benefits.......i miss everyone...yet...no one wants to do jack....so....Alicia said...lets get you a puppy..yay..something that *should* make me happy.....lets see.......i have gotten so bored today on a day off....ive counted my sticks on incense....580 normal size.....28 "chibi" sticks 28ish of the very large 3 foot long sticks......my keybored has this FUNNY rattle to it now and its annoying cus it does it every time i type..oh.....i actually found a way to keep my mom from using my gas in my car...pull the starter fuse out nightly...engine doesn’t crank to well *not at all* without that little bastered in.....i missed the con i wanted to go to because of bills...thanks dad for spending my savings money ! I did find and locate a working NES system....fun to play old skool games.....yea..well anyone...night to who ever ACTULLY reads this *apparently no one does* and..some one call me........do something x.x
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[03 Nov 2005|10:54am] |
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Well...I tried to vote..got the voters card and all..buuuuut...apparently I’m not in the system...this happens....a lot...oh well..anywho...iam..15days away from being 19....yay *sarcasm* was going to try to do something for my b-day thought of watching metropolises or watching boogie pop....or worse....cat soup ! *got happy with ebay ^^* Yea...pretty much iam doing jack...working on the RC car's.....paintball stuff etc....hanging out with ben and them sometimes...but i had fun....hill owed me a little bit of money for crashing the RC car into a building and when we went to pick it up he talked us into volunteering at Dr.Pains haunted Asylum...now THAT was much fun.....anyhow....I’m gonna go....actually got a counter for "how many people actually remember my birthday" peace
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[21 Sep 2005|02:17am] |
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Hey..i hate water..but yet...i have to have it....Hmm....well hear is my i hate water rant...ok..those that still havent decided to hate me....well dad got a REALLY nice new harley...we keep it in the garage..okay..the garage water comes under the door and floods out..the "drain" there...is just a pipe that goes in the ground...they never conntected it...fun eh..the harley was safe..didnt get above 3 inches high..just got the tires wet and the kickstand.....had to clean that shit up...i did lose a crapload of computer stuff i had sitting downstairs and some stuff i should of left to be drop shipped to my buyers......yes..ive got a "buisness" now...wholesale pircing supplies and tattooing crap...yes..i sell bulk orders....IE the caps to put ink..the ink..the needles etc etc....being very careful about it to....only selling to "pre approved" people...those i know are 18 and understand the riskes there taking....gonna take a venture out and perhaps start to stockpile stuff in the house....ive been doing drop shipping...i "own" the needles etc and items at the wholesalers but i pay them to pick items and ship outta my own stock.....and when ever iam low...i get emails to alert me to what i need etc...its actully been doing good seeing as the kits for self piering cost me 5 bucks to make...they get them for 20...vs paying 45 for a shop to pircing you..and jewlery wise...iam paying 3.50 plus shipping to get the same thing i can get at a tattoo/pircing shop or the place in the mall for 20 some bucks...i started this with 100 bucks and ive trippled my profit...but now iam debating keeping this goning or...just let it die.....i dunno.....i may expand it..iam looking at an acttuly location for storage othr than a storage garage...and opening a website with secure crap and all that goodies.....perhaps ill grow..perhaps ill just use it and keep it as side income....Hmm...lovley eh..
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[17 Sep 2005|05:01am] |
Okay...i just found out by friends of friends...my old bestfriend that betrayed me got OWNED !!
Anyway...they even have pictures of this....he went to beach week on the west coast with some of his buddies...2 of which i still talk to....and well they all go partying get sloshed etc...well..he does they "hey shes drunk...maybe ill get lucky" and found a girl willing to go to his hotel room with him...well..here's the kicker...not only would he wake up with a headache..but "she" wasnt a she...."she"
was a crossdressing male that he thought was a female !!! can we say OWNED !!!!! I would be scared for life if that happend to me...and all i can say is..gooooo karma !!!
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[15 Sep 2005|05:40pm] |
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Eh...work is tiring...but work is money...yay...sarcism....parents are fighting like a cat and dog....screaming divoirce at each other...lovely...now there all made up..grrr...*blehs* good news...got my ears pirced....and some other stuff going on.....got a 2nd RC car...a truck....trying to get an actully misbuhsi eclipse now...found a wreaked one for 800...needs a front end clip...but hey...fun....
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[09 Jun 2005|12:43pm] |
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Today marks the last day in hell for me....and on top of that me and Hillary were commended in front of the Roanoke city board of supervisors at our school and the school board for "achieving higher Excellency through hard work and determination" for taking and passing both CISCO and full MCSE ranks *MCSA = Microsoft Certified Systems Engineer* in front of our school...and the hippie teacher even had remarks for each senior, this was mine and Hillary’s saying, Hillary : " i have taught each student to think outside the box and to strive for achievement over there goals....but Hillary...remember there isn’t a box......there was never a box to hold you inwards but you could make one out of duct tape and paperclips to NASA specifications" Gary: " the most insane as well as sane one, always stuck with Hillary planning something mechanical or electrical from the 60mph little RC car you brought in yesterday to your "Severally modified computers" you have....only you could make an pc glow toxic green and talk back to you...I’ am sure you would do well in your field as you only killed 3 laptops but at the same time...took those 3 and made them into 2 that work....." today has just kick ass....now i want something to do !! And also a note…out of 5.890 students for our school district me and Hillary were the ONLY ones to pull this off…….i’am happy i wanna party damn it !!! :P
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| Its done...mwhaah |
[08 Jun 2005|04:11am] |
Piccies
http://rattkin.deviantart.com/gallery/
check it out and leave me feedback about the nice artwork on the camero body ^^ we got board and made it...custom cut camero body with pearl black base paint pearl silver and peral baby blue flames.....heh...and did i mention it hit 68ish with a .16 motor.....next motor is my modifed .18 whenever i get it running....top speed 89ish...on a stright away MWHAHA
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[02 Jun 2005|11:22pm] |
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I feel hurt...iam pretty much the black sheep of the relationship hidden from all.....and what really hurts is i keep telling her it hurts and i dont want to get burnt and it actully scares me.....its like..iam letting her cheat....on me / her gf like iam her little boy toy.....i keep telling her...but she dosnt apprentely get it or she chooses to ignore it.....*blahs* it irks me...hurts me...and makes me feel bad.....like iam setting myself up for another massive failer.....i cant really do much about it other than ride the waves and bite the bullit......ive actully started to give up on the whole thing called love but again iam being a fool and being brought back into the wadding pool.......with sharks....and sharp thingys.........trying to avoid the sharp things is an workout in its own....*blahs* well i must finish this damn report.....sorry for bothering everyone......ya know i rant and put stuff i want to vent on LJ...sorry..
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